I just got drug tested

Like 15 min. ago
WTF

Im really really glad I peed in a bottle days ago when I had nothing in my system. I just poured that into the container and added some warm water from the sink and gave it to my rents. I was shaking so hard, even though I knew it was going to work. Still.. most nerve wracking thing ever.

And she ordered nicotine tests finally right while we were waiting for my test results. I'll e clean on nicotine this Friday, but if they come before then, then I'll just use my old piss again.

I know this sounds stupid

But I dont like feeling ignored. Or just the feeling that he's not giving me as much attention that I want. Im so used to being the one who doesnt pay that much attention, or just seeming like I dont care as much. Im used to him giving me more than enough attention, making me his #1 priority. I guess I just wish he would.

Im asking him to be official tomorrow... Im going through alot of trouble to make our plans work out. I just kinda wish he would care more.

Geeze I sound stupid, he loves me, I love him. <33 tomorrow will be a good day