This is what I need right now.

I need the beach. Cold and damp from the Fall weather. I need a bottle of wine to drown my feelings with. I need my voice so I can scream away all the confusion I'm feeling.

That's what I need, plain and simple.

Jealousy Is An Ugly Trait.

But it's my mark to bare.

It seems as if I can't help it. My senses are telling me I have nothing to worry about and that I'm being irrational, but my teenage girl thoughts and hormones are telling me that something is either going on or on the brink of going on.

When I love, I love hard. Jealousy is just part of that package, I'm not good with handling myself while Im feeling that way because I never had a reason to be before. The only other times I've felt this way, I've been right. Tre broke up with me for Lindsey, Ryan for Annestasia. Sure, it's just a friendship, theyre not doing anything wrong, he can hang out with girls and I can hang out with guys.

I don't trust you. I don't trust anything. I don't trust mankind.