You terrify me pt.2

You honeslty are my worst fear yet also my fantasy. i've learned three golden rules from my 17 years of living; never give someone youre heart, trust no one, and always keep youre guard up. The more I get to know you, the more I feel myself breaking my own rules. I'm slowly losing my tight grip on my heart and I can feel it slipping away, my guard has been lowering since the day I met you, but my trust is still something I can't give. I fear you but I crave you, but mainly I can't trust you. No matter how many times you tell me how youre over youre ex and how much you resent her for what she did to you, I can't fully believe you. You've brought her up at some point ever time I'm with you, you still have pictures saved of her, and you still talk to her. I'm not the jealous type and I'm not trying to come off that way. I understand that any relationship that lasts over a year is going to strongly bond two individuals but I'm not about to give you my everything if you're still hung up on another girl. I like you so much that it scares me, I'm not about to get hurt yet again. I gave up on relationships before I met you, your what changed that. Please don't let me down.. Because I'm finally letting someone in, and I pray that you're worth it.